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Seeing as it is Christmas, I was thinking about how lucky I am. I've been sick as fuck for like 5 days and I was thinking about how lucky I am that when I'm sick, I have warm house and bed to stay in, with parents who take care of me and can afford to take me to the doctor and buy me medicine. It makes me kind of upset to see kids in my town (a relitavley wealthy upscale suburban community) doing stupid things with their lives. Oxy, Coke, etc. Kids who feel like they have nothing better to do so they put their entire futures at risk. Some of them act like they have nothing to live for when really they are so lucky. Yeah theirs serious family issue's with some of my friends and I can respect that. When I was in New Orleans I met people their, who literaly didnt have anything to live for. They had no houses, no possesions, no family, nothing. All they had were themselves and God. And they still went to Churhc on sundays praised God and worked their asses of to try to rebuild the community (a duanting task that may never be completed). These are people who were working themselves to the bone against impossible odds for nothing more but the chance to live. These folks communities were shit even before Katrina, with gangs, corruption, drugs, you name it, but they still have enough faith and strength to try to work through it anyway. And here are these kids in needham with food in their stomachs, roofs over their heads, clothes on their backs, money in the bank, health care if they need it, and they act like their lives arent worth a shit, like they have nothing to lose, when really they do. Theirs no way they could look those poor people in the 9th ward square in the eye and say "I have nothing to live for, God has forsaken me, I might as well let my life go to shit." I would be embarrased. I know people have chemichal imbalances and stuff but i believe that effort and outlook is a part of dealing with those problems just as much as getting help and medicine. At least thats what the folks I know who have pulled through it have told me. Anywho, merry christmas, count your blessing